Hello again

I am here to tell something that I am afraid to say to anyone in face to face conversation. It is kinda weird or odd to say but I am always little coward when it comes to showing a emotions. Any kind of emotions starting with hate and ending at love. I prefer to hide it because I am scared that the other person will laugh at me or simply break off the contacts. 

Sometimes when I really care about other person I am maybe too shy to tell my true feelings. The worst is the fact that it isn't always the matter of feeling love to other person which can be called the girlfriend but also the closest family. I never said to my father that I love him, but I really did. He teached me how to drive a car, how to paint a wall, how to deal with ignorant people. I never said it, you know it is hard to say something and you just prefer to think that the other person already knows what you feel. It is not true sometimes better to say straight away than to wait until it is too late. 
It may sound ridiculous but now when I think about this I just wrote what I feel and how I feel certain things. Maybe it is my first step.

The qoute: 

“Some of us think holding on makes us strong, but sometimes it is letting go.” – Herman Hesse